You

When you started smoking, i feel we can connect more. But i didn't realized something is changing in you. You used to be wise, caring and really really intelligent, but now, i realized you're changing to fit your surroundings, and the people around you. I guess once you got used to that, its hard for you to change. A friend of mine keep asking me, do i have any feeling for you, I deny it all the time. Its not because its not true, its because I'm not sure anymore weather i still have that feeling. Its because every time i talk to you, part of me still have it and part of me start rejecting it because of what you've become.

I might have a wrong perception about you from the start, i don't know, i could be wrong, maybe this is who you are all this while and i just didn't know you that well to tell. It could be me disappointing myself.

Remember when Amanda asked you how we met? You said its not memorable? You are wrong, it is for me. I was the guy with the "Fuck the world" caption and you came to me and asked me whats wrong and we started talking about a lot of things, we had conversations that i never had with any other that girl I've met in my entire life. We cant stop talking to each other for the longest time. I liked you since then, i just never thought of doing anything about it because i think you're too smart to like a person like me.

Its heartbreaking that i felt the other way around now. I wish i don't have to write this down. This is not to discredit you as a person, its mainly about how i felt, because you're only one of the few person that i really cared about.

and the only person that i fell in love with the longest time.

kidt

Its been a while yea.

Silent Scenery - Im here, you are not

We are gonna die, to-mo-oh oh oh row
We will shoot ourselves in the head
Explosions will erupt in the sky-i i i
Planes will start fall on the ground

Ohh oh oh
Say farewell to the world
Ohh oh oh
Say goodbye to our sores
Ohh oh oh
We'll see colors no more
Ohh oh oh
There'll aint be countries no more

We missed our train under the sea
I didnt took the chance to send you the heart shaped box
Now im gone, so are you, you are gone, so am i
We cant meet again, oh can we meet again?

Ohh oh oh
We're here we are not
Ohh oh oh
Rewind that tape for more

So close yet so much more to go
We should be running wild, escape, exile
Pray for a suspended show

Ohh oh oh
We're here we are not
Ohh oh oh
I am here, you are not.

Written by Kit for Silent Scenery 2010

People are really fucking dumb

1) Environmentalist: Rich elites who disguised themselves as fighter of the nature. They dont care about the nature, they only care about a nice place for themselves to live in and they want you to take care of the nature so that they can have nice environment for themselves. Screw Environmentalist.

2) Art people: They thought they are doing something for the society, everything they do has a meaning. Nobody should questions their arts, they feel if you dont get it, you're ignorant and not creative. Art is the same as religion, they are exclusively for people who agree with them. If you dont agree with them , you are a retard. Fuck art, drink beer.

3) Religious people: Conservatives that often contradicts themselves. They said, only God has the power to judge people and yet they judge people who doesnt believe & disagree with them. They say they dont know hows afterlife is like but claims that there's heaven and hell. If you dont believe in god, you die. If you believe in other god, you die. More people have die in the name of religion than any other reasons. Fuck all religion! Religious people can shove a big unicorn up their asses.

4) Extreme liberal people: These people fight the conservatives too much that they have gone nuts. They will go as far as saying Man and Animals are equal. They call Man and Children sexual relationships "freedom of choice". Not a single person in this world is one thing, there must be something that we're conservative about, there must be something we are liberal about. Prostitution, Gay Marriage and Marijuana? I am liberal. Pedophilia, rape and crime? I'm conservative. Its cool to have a liberal thinking, but going too far into liberating stuff is dumb. Extreme liberal people should just have sex with animals if they think they are so liberal.

5) Racial / Cultural / Country extremist: These people are fucking dumb. Race, Culture and Country pride is simply the biggest causes of war. These fucking people fight for things that are genetic and luck accidents. Nobody should be proud of their race, culture and country. Pride is something that we gain, not by genetic accident or accident of birth. I say, stop being proud of these stupid shit and live like a human being. Racial, culture and country extremist should try licking their own assholes.

Thats all for today. Fuck these people.

Kidt

Sunday is the day!

Hulu Selangor voters, if you're working in other states, please go back and vote Pakatan Rakyat. Stop the evil BN regime!

ZAID IBRAHIM for HULU SELANGOR!

Boycott all BN owned media from now on! Especially the Utusan Malaysia! Don't believe anything they say or write! Go to Malaysiakini, go to Malaysian Insider, go to Malaysia Today! Read, watch and decide for yourself!

Zaid Ibrahim for Hulu Selangor!

Kidt

They somehow made me who i am today

Its been awhile since i've listened to Nirvana, and today, i played In Utero. Thats reminds me how much this band has influence my music life. Then, i started to recall back how many albums that affect me like In Utero does, nowadays there are very little album that i can enjoy entirely.

That triggered me to make this list:-

1. Nirvana - In Utero (If i have tourettes, i will listen to this album until the day i die, have more in common right? Love all the songs in the album)
2. Butterfingers - Selamat Tinggal Dunia (Most critical and sharp rock music ever made by Malaysian. Love 90% of the songs)
3. Radiohead - OK Computer (You know you've encountered a great album when you found yourself playing the album on loop although you said "WTF?" during the first listen. Like 80% of the songs)
4. Elliott Smith - XO ("Im never gonna know you now, but Im gonna love you anyhow" This line cuts me deeper than the steak knife did to Elliott. Love 90% of the songs)
5. Furniture - Twilight Chases The Sun (The most depressing album ever made by Malaysian. Love 90% of the songs)
6. Muse - Origin Of Symmetry (Talk about kick ass guitar riffs and dark lyrics combination no one does it better than Matthew Bellamy. Love 90% of the songs)
7. Oasis - Whats the story? Morning Glory (The Gallagher brothers are idiots, but i believe their idiot-ism has contributed greatly to their music. Love 70% of the songs)
8. Pearl Jam - VS (The got famous upon their first album release, I only started to love them when they release this album. Love 90% of the songs)
9. Smashing Pumpkins - Mellon Collie Of The Infinite Sadness (Love 70% of the songs, but thats enough, the album has 28 songs)
10. Nirvana - Nevermind (Nobody can ever make such an album. They win, forever)
11. Slipknot - Slipknot (Oh, those hateful lyrics, beats, and riffs can seriously drive me to kill somebody if im in a bad state of mind)
12. Smashing Pumpkins - Siamese Dream (Today is the greatest, Hippie ice cream van with people making out all over, thats a huge WIN. Love 80% of the songs)
13. The Vines - Highly Evolved (The guys sucks at singing, but he does write pretty catchy songs, made me hooked to the whole album)
14. Weezer - The Blue Album (Oh Say it aint so, how can anybody not love this album?)
15. Weezer - Pinkertone ("I've got your letter, you've got my song, Im dumb she's a lesbian", this two songs are enough to make up the whole damn album. I think i was in love when i found out about this album )

I realized, none of the bands above are post rock or instrumental band. Its weird, that my music doesnt sounds like any of the band that i listened to. Can i actually say they are my influence? Hahah. Oh well.

Kidt

Maybe

"Someday, when you're at my age, you'll find that waking up with a women snoring beside you is more important than any guitars, amps and pedals in the world"

Hahaha, this is strangely funny for me. Maybe i will understand that someday. Maybe, maybe not.

Kidt